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You Don't Know me, You Don't Even Care望著你 突然一阵心痛 一次又一次任那感情放纵 你的脆弱 让我走不开 你的依赖 所以我存在 | ||||||||
And so it is, Just like you said it would be
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Monday, September 19, 2005, 12:24:00 AM
All my bags are packed.. im ready to go again.. i suppose?
Well 2 weeks of block leave is over in a jiffy, haha good times never last as i've found out again and again.. anyway it had been a good rest from bmt, although mentally im not really prepared to go back to camp, i'd suppose i'd just have to ride through it... Well to tell you the truth when weijian msged me during my ns bbq last thurs that i got into OCS i was really surprised, i know myself that i wasnt the best performer within the platoon and yet i got a better posting than those who had put in more effort than me, it feels kinda.. awkward, almost embarassing that i got into ocs.. but since i got in might as well make the best of it.. well i've met quite a few old friends this week, farhana.. collin.. yang.. hanging out with them was really enjoyable, feels like just the old days, but haha kinda disappointing is that didnt meet up with some others like yao sheng, my sec school 4 man gang.. my poly classmates.. my archery peeps.. haha didn't get the chance to eat a tub of venezia too.. but ohh well i settled for a small cup for myself today :] Well this week hasn't been a really romantic 1.. didnt really had the chance to meet up with my girl often.. and we didnt really have much to talk about and we quarreled a little.. but yeah its working out i suppose.. but i was really looking forward to her support to get me thru the 3 weeks confinement for ocs.. well she really didnt give me much verbal encouragement.. but haha i noe she does care.. i think..? ha.. i feel really neglected sometimes.. my girl doesnt show her care for me much and i feel like im on the giving end.. its not that im complaining or disliking caring for her.. but everybody is selfish in love.. i want to be loved too.. i want to know that some1 cares for me too.. yeap thats right, 3 weeks away from home and online, i dont guess anybody will really miss me.. you guys all noe it.. haha its been so long since i've really hanged out with you guys i dont blame you guys for putting me outta your minds.. maybe its just me or something but i'm feeling pretty melancholic now.. Well its not like it hasnt happen b4, away from home i mean, as always i'll try to find a way to ride it out, survive thru the weeks i suppose, till then guys.. take care.. ::::: Leaving ::::: And so he stands there exhaling a sigh of relief.. Bags are packed, yet not ready to leave.. the heart's tied down to those he yearn.. yet few of those know.. too busy to see.. that someone is waiting there for them.. No one said that leaving was easy.. Well, no 1 said it would be so hard.. what do you do when your heart's not there? what do you do about feelings unshared.. whatever it is, life still goes on, and before you'll know it, it'll all be thru. Haha.. it might sound cheesy, but its really true.. Life is a play.. we're all unrehearsed.. Wednesday, September 14, 2005, 1:07:00 AM
Be with me..
Well just came back from watching the movie "Be with me" with farhana, its surprisingly a really good show, brings out alot of sentimental feelings.. Well i guess most of you guys won't watch this movie, so i'll just give you the gist of it.. Well there are actually alot of characters in the show, but all the characters have the same thing in common, love. it shows each of the characters having difficulties with their love life.. true love, desired love, lost love.. Haha watching this show brings me back to the issue on love.. Well its been a really time since i rethink what love is about.. Well since i'm already in love now it comes as a daily thing for me, and in some sense i take it for granted i suppose.. well looking at others still searching for it haha i almost forgot how bad the feeling can be, the longing for love.. waking up every morning thinking about a girl or guy, hoping that he/her will return your love, the emptiness inside of you, the anxiousness of waiting an answer.. hahahahahaha all those feelings seem so familiar to me.. Well at least now i wake up knowing that someone accepts me as a companion and loves me.. Anyway i recommend the show! the piano piece was really soothing and the portraying of the love between the elderly couple was really pure and touching.. HheheheHEEHe talking about my love life, i'd actually had quite a long history of crushes and people whom i like sia.. i guess those whos involved wont read my blog sooo quite safe to talk about it bah. I guess i first learned about love during sec 1 when i liked my primary school friend, hahahahahaha ended up a sad story hahahahahaha dont ask, but she was really the first person made me cant sleep at night siaaaaaaaaa haha.. then follows a longggg list, theresssss J, S, A, A.) i think thats the main 1s ahaha, in Poly theres A, E, andddd my present girl haha. total 7 sia. hahaha... Anyway after sending farhana home from the movie i took a short walk home and i thought about the past 20 years, havn't really been thinking about my life recently.. i suppose the time period which i think i have wasted the most was during secondary school.. I have no memory or impression of what i spent my time on during secondary school, its just like i had no real social life, i didnt get to know the girls, i didn't go out as a group, i did nano. haha i suppose its partially cos of my strict dad anyway, but any o howwww i really regret not knowing friends whom i could have known better during that time.. (girls maybe? xD) Whoop thats most about love i suppose.. I just finished my bmt last tues like i said earlier, and well it was a bittersweet ending.. haha although i found a group of ppl can go out with anytime 1 yeahhhhh.. haha darn think i think i feeling too sentimental now no mood to write ns stuff.. ohh well wouldn't want to bore ppl with ns stuff again anyway.. I've found a new hobby which is to just sing out what i feel in melody, hahaa since u cant hear it i'll just type out the lyrics.. ::::::::: Be with me ::::::::: Another night.. another day.. 20 years has gone away.. walking alone down a starless night.. Is there anyone that'll be there for me? looking at friends, searching for love, distraught about unrequisited feelings.. All these feelings are all too familiar to me, lucky for me, i'm already in love.. Yet often in times, ppl likes to think, what whould have happened if this other girl was with me? guess we'll never know.. unless we dream.. but i don't care, i have you with me.... To those looking for love, no tactics you'll need, just show her you care, and say.. "Be with me.." ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Life is a play, we're all unrehearsed Tuesday, September 13, 2005, 5:55:00 PM
Block leave..
Well just had some spare time so i thought might as well write smth here.. Its been exactly a week since i've passed out from BMT, and the 2 weeks rest is much needed for me, haha although all the civilian mentality is coming back to me, well these few days i've spent them mostly at home on the computer while waiting for my NEW FREAKING COMP TO ARRIVE ARHARHARHARHAR. haha just did guard duty last saturday really shiong sia its like having route march all over again. Anyway missed the chance for archery again pretty upset about that. Havn't gone out with most of the archers for a really long time, ohh well can't blame them the timing isnt correct with their exams coming up soon.. Althoughhhhhhhhhh i was pretty upset that only a few of them could make it for my "birthday" celebration.. but ohhh well its over anyway.. Whoop going out for dinner with my sec school friend and a movieeee, wanted to watch Brothers Grimm but she wanted "Be with me" -.-" hahaha ohh yar watched the longest yard last sun with collin they all really nice show sia real funny. See you guys later.. |
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