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You Don't Know me, You Don't Even Care望著你 突然一阵心痛 一次又一次任那感情放纵 你的脆弱 让我走不开 你的依赖 所以我存在 | ||||||||
And so it is, Just like you said it would be
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Monday, December 26, 2005, 11:13:00 PM
End of the year..
Well its time for my annual end of the year summary.. 2005, its been, a year of transition for me.. from a civilian to a soldier.. haha well to tell you the truth i've even forgotten how it feels to be like a civilian.. but like they say, time will go on~ well time seems slow this year.. in the sense that i've had so many experiences as compared to years before, haha well lets just say that i've spent more time awake then sleeping this year.. so many events like field camp, exercises etc has made my memories of what has happened the earlier months of this year faded and blurry.. i've had graduation dinner and dance event.. graduation.. overseas trip.. many others.. haha those were great yet sad days.. great in the sense that i've completed yet another chapter of my life, sad in the sense that those days may never return, things we will do again.. and friends whom we may never seen again.. It has been a year of loss and gain.. the loss of my freedom in a sense, the loss of my adolescent days, my loss as of what to do when poly ended.. the loss of people whom i know, mr ng and ivan.. one my mentor.. another my brother.. i still think of them time to time.. of the old days where things were simpler.. The gain? of new friends, of brothers whom so much i've been through with, then gain of maturity, the gain of new strength and the discovery of my weaknesses.. I feel my loss are greater than my gains.. I've had some really good times this year.. the japan trip was one of the best.. haha its the only good thing that i can remember.. Well christmas has came and gone by.. faster than any xmas i've had in my life.. time there wasnt for me to get into the mood and really enjoy the festive mood where everything is cool yet heart warming, lazy and festive mood itself that brings a smile to the face.. well nxt year maybe time is more abundent.. Yet another turbulent year in the world events.. people are still dying, the earth is still warming, meaningless fights still exists.. but i've escaped unscathed yet again.. something we should be grateful for.. sometimes i feel like the luckiest man alive.. i live in a good family, in a good country, i've had a good life till now, made good friends, had pretty good results, have a girlfriend.. escaped through all kinds of hardship and punishments unscathed.. i almost feel guilty.. Regrets this year..? well plentiful as usual.. regrets of friends and people i never got to know.. of things i could have done (like the graduation trip i was planning and yearning for so badly..) well thats basically it. Haha just a simple question.. should new years eve be a happy one or a sad one..? well i guess that has to depend on each persons experiences that year and personality.. for me? being melancholic as always.. i feel sad for the passing of yet another year in my life.. of things never to return yet again.. yet within that sadness i've reserved space for feelings of yearning and anticipation, of the good things to come in the near future. next year i'll be 21 already.. that of an official young adult.. haha.. a young adult.. sometimes the weight on my shoulders are too heavy to bear.. but for now, im just looking forward to a enjoyable christmas eve. Till next year then my friends.. happy new year.. auld lang syne.. :: Hope for the best, expect the worst, life is a play, we're all unrehearsed :: Sunday, December 04, 2005, 6:49:00 PM
a beautiful sunset.. thats what i hope to see.. with you..
I met her yesterday at clark quay.. but i couldn't give her a hug.. couldn't give her comfort and warmth.. she was just beside me but she didn't want me to hold her hand or anything cos she's uncomfortable with it around her friends.. i respect that.. but i guess you guys know how bad it hurts when she say these kind of stuff.. i kinda cried while i was walking home alone yesterday.. haha guess by now u guys are sick of me lamenting on my sorrows.. anyway i wrote a song, havnt really thought of a title yet, but i'll let u ppl know in time.. it really sucks so yeah guess wont let you ppl hear it unless i improve on it.. next week will be one of the hardest week in my life.. platoon field camp.. guess i'll just have to manage somehow.. anyway, hope u peeps are in christmas mood already, get ready ur gifts and stuff.. i'm going back to camp.. :: i live in a world where ppl tell me that dreams are just make believe, but i pushed myself harder trying to reach for what i've dreamed of all these years.. harder and harder i run trying to chase whats ahead of me, but then, slowly and surely i start see, somethings are not meant to be who will be there to hold my hand when i fall upon my knees, to lift me up from the sorrows thats been burning a hole right through me who will be there to hold my hand when teardrops they gather around my eyes to open my eyes and let me see, the beauty that surrounds me:: hope for the best, expect the worst |
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Vanity isn't a sin, a little narcissm wouldn't hurt.![]() Woei Perng Age:24+ D.O.B:03/09/1985 Horoscope:Virgo School:NUS Chemistry Email:wongwp21@hotmail.com What is my proof of existence? When i'm 50 i hope that my daily revelations written in this place will help me in summarising what kind of life i have lead. I've done things i wasn't proud of, Things that i may never be able to forgive myself, but in doing so i've learnt lessons of patience and emotional control, discovering what i had become and how far i have deviated. Change is never too late. |
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