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Sunday, July 30, 2006, 9:21:00 PM
As an officer of the singapore armed forces..
Hmm been a week.. Haha pretty much tthe whole of this week at work was dedicated to the organising of friday mornings out camp run.. liasoning.. going for meetings.. doing ground recce at east coast park.. sending emails.. drawing maps.. doing briefings.. HA! it might sound easy but actually its quite mentally taxing.. But ohh well friday went by without much major problems luckily.. although i admit i could have done a better job.. Whats pretty funny was that president nathan ran passed us while we were doing warmed up. and everybody got stunned, dunno to salute him or what haha..! haha ooo smth else that was funny was that i had to do close combat sparring with my sgts.. fwah really fought.. hahah its too aggressive to describe, all i can say is that. FIGHTING ISNT AS EASY AS IT SEEMS. hahahah.. after the sparring session i was so pooped out but i couldnt let my men see, so i was hiding 1 corner to catch my breath haha! :P needa exercise more.. Bought this graphic novel called "Flight" at kino last friday, its kinda like a compilation of many short stories, its really quite interesting, some stories of melancholy, some of hope etc etc, its the kind of book that leaves you thinking.. hmmm.. haha.. Just another week for me i suppose.. although some things didn't really go according to plan, but ohh well live and let live.. haha.. hey.. if what i said bothered you, i'm sorry about it.. but i'm still serious about it. no rush! haha.. Whoop i suddenly had this urge to perform in archery again. haha just call it.. hmm.. awakening? ha.. call it pride of an old fool? haha.. birthday's coming soon.. haha had so many dumb ideas about what to do that night. but the "light stick" idea was by far one of the stupidest i've heard. lol and to think i actually thought of it first lol :P whoop gone!.. till next week i suppose! hope for the best, expect the worst, life is a play, we're unrehearsed. Wednesday, July 26, 2006, 7:48:00 PM
i like bernice.. haha guess she wont know for the time being.
Well you can say that i came home tonight from camp just to write a blog that i didnt get to complete last sunday, haha still feeling quite demoralised because of it but ohh well i'm here already writing a new blog - Yesterday the officers were discussing about how to distribute the ndp tickets actual day and preview day tickets haha, all i can say that its a dark dark world.. haha all the big shots were like requesting for tickets and yeap we mostly divided the actual day tickets among them haha. but woah the design of the ticket and the feel was really nice haha. everyone were like eyeing for a pair themselves *sparkle in the eyes* - Busy week with many things to think about.. fridays out camp run has left me worrying about alot of stuffs since i'm the conducting officer. the running route.. the transports, the route to go there, etc etc. zzz please let it be over soon.. haha and to think i volunteered.. well i wont say thats it's very hard to plan, just that i tend to worry too much and being indecisive haha.. made a trip down to east coast just for it from khatib.. haha feeling kinda guilty to make daniel drive me all the way there. whoop! - i was thinking maybe its time i really acted like an officer.. - haha i keep winning ed and yankai in the ps game! haha so happy about it. LALALALA both of u lousy la... *victory dance* and usually they'll pin me down and do smth to me but ohh well hahah i win. - ohh well back to camp.. haha just wanted to write smth.. arhlalallaa. - 26/07/06.. finally did smth that i was pondering very hard about.. hahaha ed went bathing and came out from it and i was stilll outside the corridor thinking about it. but anyway still did it in the end although kinda late haha. didn't feel as nervous as i expected myself to be.. guess it thanx to ed haha.. :) slept very well that night.. - 私の中心の中では明かでない感情の多数を、誰かがそれをか知っていないで別のそう混同したいかに作ることができるか驚かせる隠し..私は非常に長い時間の間自分自身の内のそれを保った, それは私を気違いにしている. . - -- 私は私の誕生日を。そして、ちょうど多分多分待っている。私達は一緒にある場合もある.. - maybe i'm trying too hard. but till that day comes, hope for the best, expect the worst.. life is a play.. we're unrehearsed.. Sunday, July 23, 2006, 9:43:00 PM
i typed out alot of things. alot of things but they got wiped away.. haha webby crashed. i guess its a sign. i thought that finally i can express out what i feel. what i have been dying to shout out for awhile now. but guess its not gonna happen this way. I just wanted you to know.. haha really kinda disappointed now.. ohh well.. see you guys next week. Friday, July 21, 2006, 12:30:00 AM
Fate
Haha had this lunch time conversation with jinsen and daniel my army peers and we were just talking about fate in relationships which i felt was very interesting. -- We were saying about how usually people think that couples will/should have common interests or habits to be able to have a lasting relationship, which i thought was basically true. But i think jinsen said that.. Sometimes love does really go that way, true while have things in common contribute to a longing relationship, but! there are times where the couples have totally different habits and interests.. thats where love comes in.. -- Through their partners different habits the man or the woman absorbs different kinds of experience, and they see another world through the eyes of their partner, and with true love they accomodate and understand some maybe undesirable habits of their partner, thats where true love really shines in how they encompass and embrace each other. -- Haha kinda strange to suddenly raise this up, but i found it very interesting that jinsen could say such stuff, haha! -- Another late night.. better get some shut eyes if not i'm a goner tmr.. -- P.S. Am i so easy to read? haha apparently everyone noes my feelings.. except those that matters. haha.. ohh well.. oyasumi nasai.. ohayo gozaimsu.. Monday, July 17, 2006, 11:42:00 PM
Hidden agendas
Haha.. whooop *pat on the back* phew welcome to my new new blog skin :D Well i'd say i like this blog skin better then the last i had.. the last one was kinda small and pretty glaring colour, but this one's just nice, haha somemore its hazy grey.. kinda like me, feeling grey and fuzzy now.. >_< Whoop was it 1 or 2 weeks since i've blogged? hmm no matters~ well lets just said the week has been a week of decisions, YET the reprecussions of the decisions are much more far flung then i thought it'll be.. haha perhaps that'll affect the rest of my life. Made me feel so frustrating ugh. What to do? how to do it? when to do it? Why i wanna do it? hidden agendas of my own? should i carry on with it? ... hahah i'm making it sound like its a life and death situation. nyah i suppose its simpler then i think.. just that the usually me tend to complicate matters haha.. Whoop i think these few days i've been balancing between the line of being friendly and being irritating.. haha my opinion is that i'm more irritating then chatty. whoops my bad.. erm.. just couldn't stop it.. feel that i'm being very delibrate.. whoop..? wish i could explain.. hahaha *smack* °_° ANYWAY, whoop bought a pair of adidas white leather shoes which i like pretty much, further more it was on discount wahahaha but still.. $90 O.o *ouch* haha but well at least i didn't spend 130$ like yankai hahahaha :P Did i tell you guys about the kallang basin waterfront where i'm rehearsing the national day parade? well its just think quiet water front facing the CBD in a small park thats really tranquil and cosy, like those places people go to on dates, hahaa the view during sunset is really romantic and stuff.. remind me to take a panorama picture next weekend! o_o Well the POI course in camp lasted longer than i thought it would today, pretty tiring week ahead.. and i thought i counld spend more time doing what i wanna do.. haha somemore saturdays are burnt at the ndp rehearsal.. ugh.. how to carry on like that...? o_o Kinda like a heartbreak hotel week for some.. a friend of mine just found out that another friend of mine was attached and was devastated.. well dunno what to say.. shit happens i suppose.. i would be too if i knew smth like that happened, somemore he had liked her for years.. fate making fun of people again i suppose.. o_o Got introduced to the music of yiruma this week too, his music touched my heart.. new age emotional piano pieces.. haha nothing like piano pieces to bring out the emotion.. whoop 12.23 already.. gotta wake up at 6am tmr morning better get some shut eye now, till then.. keeping thinking.. Sunday, July 09, 2006, 9:17:00 PM
Welcome to my new blog skin. Haha hmmm the music's kinda sad hurh? yeap kinda describes my mood for the past week, melancholy sets in.. well i'm still trying to find a more defining blogskin haha :) Haha well actually i just like the background music, although i'd prefer the colour to be darker instead of brown, hmm it could be more stretched too Anyway hell of a week, been busy with national day parade rehearsal and stuff.. Haha been thinking alot this week with all the free time in camp about stuffs, yeah just stuffs. Hahaha which reminds me of how impressed i am of $4 at being able to get to know girls in an instant. must be an imborn talent, But i'm still kinda ostracized from the world cos of my personality now i suppose. Well~ isn't a good thing or a bad thing haha. Hahahaa been thinking of something in particular, but i kinda just dunno how to put it into words.. Well for short, company.. haha yeah i gave up lingering in the past i suppose, haha looking towards something else.. but the person i have in mind is kinda impossible.. "arenai" lol~ ohh whatever. Back to camp. Ugh stupid codes without spacing -.-" next week i'll change it! :D Hope for the best, expect the worst, life is a play, we're all unrehearsed. Sunday, July 02, 2006, 2:00:00 AM
My success, my failures, my darkest secret.
Just couldn't sleep tonight, guess it must've been the events for today that set me off thinking.. Haha guess i'm still kinda stunned by the Trick bk and bern played on me, hahaha althoughhhh i should've known better, guess i was too guilble on my part lolz. just try not to give me anymore stunners like that aightt? haha its not like my life's not kinda bonkers enough already?~ :P Which brings me to my next point! Are singaporean guys getting more pathetic these years? hahaha cos i kinda like see an interesting trend of pretty girls turning butchs, or les for this case. haha well i just happened to see this really pretty girl on the bus today and she was with this other girl you noe etc etc. haha i was like kinda °° wth? ugh well to think about it.. i don't blame em! cause i kinda feel that the current teenage group of guys are all either nerds, trying too impress girls (wannabes), or the other downright ganster wannabes, haha *sigh* lets just hope that i'm judging them extremely.. And yeap these few weeks going down for archery, i just don't feel the excitement of shooting anymore, i've somewhat lost my passion for the sport.. kinda like just losing a sense of direction, wondering why i''m aiming for bulls-eye and stuff like that.. well at best it does relieves me of some stress, but yeap.. i think i've just lost the will to improve myself.. guess this is what they call a slump in life, ughz.. Haha watched superman just now at the cathay, well it was pretty nice, especially the portrayal of him being not infallible too.. no one is infallible.. Somehow the movie just set me thinking, what do i really want out of my life? I've talked about it for so many times since the last few months, but i've been really avoiding the question.. just taking everyday as it comes.. when kailing was still with me, my reasons for living each day was to call her and care for her, at least thats what i think, and the reason to look forward to each weekend was to meet her. *side thought* :funny.. during poly how i sacrificied time with her for archery instead.. guess i'm just like all other men.. lamenting only when you've lost what you wanted. throughout the almost 3 months since we've split, i tried so hard to get her back that even i felt that if i was her i'd be really irritated. but i guess things we can't go back to how we were.. in my opinion? All men are just selfish in love, why shouldn't they be? they deserve too.. for me? i keep saying and acting selfless in the love i have to give, but comeon we're all not infallible, really deep down, i want it all, or nothing at all. within me I'm not just satisfied being able to watch and care from afar, thats a dreamer's way of life.. Everyone has an idealist way of how they want to see themselves, and i must admit i wouldn't be able to live to my ideals.. haha this is turning out to be some really brain wrecking stuff hurh haha. i'm just trying to pick up the pieces and move along with my life! but beyond that point where the shattered me lies, i've forgot what i'm moving forward for anymore. I don't want to pin hopes that kailing will return anymore~ its not doing both of us any good i suppose.. i'm a dreamer while you live realistically,, haha.. erm... BLEAHHAHHH enough about this kinda of shitty stuff. haha if you think that i'm such a dreamer about love, you should've seen me when i was back in secondary school, haha i was much more desperate to get loved hahahaa, adolescence -.-" Today i found out something about myself.. a deep, dark secret i suppose.. that i actually am bothered by iT.. hahhaha i love creating suspense. Think for the time being should just concentrate about not letting my dad worry about me.. been making him upset this few months about not spending time with the family.. whoop~ Haha guess tmr i'll talk about something less light-hearted.. till then~ ::Hope for the best, expect the worst, Life is a play we're unrehearsed:: Saturday, July 01, 2006, 12:55:00 AM
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