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You Don't Know me, You Don't Even Care望著你 突然一阵心痛 一次又一次任那感情放纵 你的脆弱 让我走不开 你的依赖 所以我存在 | ||||||||
And so it is, Just like you said it would be
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Sunday, July 02, 2006, 2:00:00 AM
My success, my failures, my darkest secret.
Just couldn't sleep tonight, guess it must've been the events for today that set me off thinking.. Haha guess i'm still kinda stunned by the Trick bk and bern played on me, hahaha althoughhhh i should've known better, guess i was too guilble on my part lolz. just try not to give me anymore stunners like that aightt? haha its not like my life's not kinda bonkers enough already?~ :P Which brings me to my next point! Are singaporean guys getting more pathetic these years? hahaha cos i kinda like see an interesting trend of pretty girls turning butchs, or les for this case. haha well i just happened to see this really pretty girl on the bus today and she was with this other girl you noe etc etc. haha i was like kinda °° wth? ugh well to think about it.. i don't blame em! cause i kinda feel that the current teenage group of guys are all either nerds, trying too impress girls (wannabes), or the other downright ganster wannabes, haha *sigh* lets just hope that i'm judging them extremely.. And yeap these few weeks going down for archery, i just don't feel the excitement of shooting anymore, i've somewhat lost my passion for the sport.. kinda like just losing a sense of direction, wondering why i''m aiming for bulls-eye and stuff like that.. well at best it does relieves me of some stress, but yeap.. i think i've just lost the will to improve myself.. guess this is what they call a slump in life, ughz.. Haha watched superman just now at the cathay, well it was pretty nice, especially the portrayal of him being not infallible too.. no one is infallible.. Somehow the movie just set me thinking, what do i really want out of my life? I've talked about it for so many times since the last few months, but i've been really avoiding the question.. just taking everyday as it comes.. when kailing was still with me, my reasons for living each day was to call her and care for her, at least thats what i think, and the reason to look forward to each weekend was to meet her. *side thought* :funny.. during poly how i sacrificied time with her for archery instead.. guess i'm just like all other men.. lamenting only when you've lost what you wanted. throughout the almost 3 months since we've split, i tried so hard to get her back that even i felt that if i was her i'd be really irritated. but i guess things we can't go back to how we were.. in my opinion? All men are just selfish in love, why shouldn't they be? they deserve too.. for me? i keep saying and acting selfless in the love i have to give, but comeon we're all not infallible, really deep down, i want it all, or nothing at all. within me I'm not just satisfied being able to watch and care from afar, thats a dreamer's way of life.. Everyone has an idealist way of how they want to see themselves, and i must admit i wouldn't be able to live to my ideals.. haha this is turning out to be some really brain wrecking stuff hurh haha. i'm just trying to pick up the pieces and move along with my life! but beyond that point where the shattered me lies, i've forgot what i'm moving forward for anymore. I don't want to pin hopes that kailing will return anymore~ its not doing both of us any good i suppose.. i'm a dreamer while you live realistically,, haha.. erm... BLEAHHAHHH enough about this kinda of shitty stuff. haha if you think that i'm such a dreamer about love, you should've seen me when i was back in secondary school, haha i was much more desperate to get loved hahahaa, adolescence -.-" Today i found out something about myself.. a deep, dark secret i suppose.. that i actually am bothered by iT.. hahhaha i love creating suspense. Think for the time being should just concentrate about not letting my dad worry about me.. been making him upset this few months about not spending time with the family.. whoop~ Haha guess tmr i'll talk about something less light-hearted.. till then~ ::Hope for the best, expect the worst, Life is a play we're unrehearsed:: |
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Vanity isn't a sin, a little narcissm wouldn't hurt.![]() Woei Perng Age:24+ D.O.B:03/09/1985 Horoscope:Virgo School:NUS Chemistry Email:wongwp21@hotmail.com What is my proof of existence? When i'm 50 i hope that my daily revelations written in this place will help me in summarising what kind of life i have lead. I've done things i wasn't proud of, Things that i may never be able to forgive myself, but in doing so i've learnt lessons of patience and emotional control, discovering what i had become and how far i have deviated. Change is never too late. |
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