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And so it is, Just like you said it would be
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Friday, September 29, 2006, 9:15:00 PM
My present to you, me, nothing more, nothing less, a little different, a little the same
I present to you all. Me, nothing more, nothing less. - A little more determined to change.. A little different, not quite the same. A little more serious.. a little less fun. A little more to myself, more unwillingly to open up A little more melancholic, a little less pathetic. A little more wanting to start over my life again, A little less concerned for the past. A little more patient, nontheless still tolerant.. A little less hoping for the best, A little more expecting the worst. A little more smarter, A little less stronger.. - Nontheless.. Still a whiner.. always the crying one.. - But.. A little less tears each time.. - A little less persistent, A little more considerate.. A little less stubborn, a little more open A little less thinking too far ahead, A little more content with what i have now. - A little less in control.. A little more wanting to scream.. - A little less checking my handphone.. hoping it will ring.. - I present to you me. just me, nothing more, nothing less. -- Wong Woei Perng.. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Was that nice? haha all of the sudden just thought of writing all that down. Well.. its been.. hmm... another long week.. but first!
Haha really feel happy for that guy, well he's kinda really more pathetic then me, i mean seriously. He must have asked or dated at least 10 girls and got turned down by every single 1 of them. Haha kudos to you my friend. Anything please ask me first before you do smth stupid. ... Not like all my choices in life were always correct thou haha. Got sabotaged by my colleagues to run SOC with my men. not like i'm not wiling to run with them though. just that. feel betrayed. haha not a very nice feeling. Spent every night doing something.. something that took quite some effort and time. thanks guys for helping out a little along the way. THANKS AHH edmund for keep telling me its dumb. I KNOW IT IS. Well it did stop me from whining didn't it? Show you guys a picture when i'm done with it.. Really quite proud of it.. Sunday, September 24, 2006, 9:36:00 PM
Stayed up till 5am this morning, couldn't sleep. didnt know what i was thinking about.. just stoning.. looking at the ceiling.. been having nightmares the past 2 days.. - its been a fast weekends, contrary the the slow weekdays.. mostly just slept the day away, looking at my handphone.. - Another week in camp.. wonder whats installed this week.. running, sweating.. and whats not.. - I stand.. i sit.. i glare.. i stare.. i think.. i chid.. i laugh.. i stone.. i sleep.. i wait.. - I wait.. - Theres only a few things that i'm sure of in my life.
Saturday, September 23, 2006, 7:52:00 PM
The slowest fastest week.. well.. i would say.. this week turned out to be really interesting hurh..? haha.. - Well i'll just start off this blog with a question.. - >_< - Question of the day! Has anything happened in your life that has made you really regret? something like.. things you should have done, things you shouldn't have done.. things that could have been but didnt happen? Haha well i was just thinking about it a few moments ago.. and yeap i came up with a few.. - >o< - Haha well the first thing that came up to my mind was that, if i was a more outgoing person back in secondary school, and maybe put in more effort in studying, things could have turned out slightly different now, BUT its not like i'm not happy the way i am now, so its not really a regret! just a thought.. haha. i mean, i loved what i studied in poly, i loved the life i've lead. (although its been kinda meaningless lol.) - The 2nd thing that came up to my mind! was kailing! haha well if i didn't do (and did) some of the things that i have done to her back when we were together, things could have turned out differently now too~ *guilty* well but now i really do admit we weren't really meant for each other in the first place after some thinking, and yeap she does deserve someone better than me haha. - And the 3nd and latest thing that came up to my mind! was.. not knowing you earlier. - ok this is just a side topic. but i swear.. after i just typed the previous line, on sept 23rd 8.08pm, i just saw a shooting star from my computer seat, looking out my window.. and it was greenish bright and beautiful.. haha.. guessed what i wished for.. - This makes it the 2nd time i've seen a shooting star! haha..! well the 1st time i was in thailand on army exercise around 4 plus am in the morning, haha.. well.. both wishes i've made now and then are related.. - ok back to the topic.. the 2nd thing that i regret in my life.. is not knowing you earlier.. i've been thinking about how would things would have turned out now if i really did meet you earlier.. i mean.. anything that could have happened beats the way things are now.. - Okay! now back onto happenings this week! went out for local ex. outfield. fwah i was really kinda sick and groggy.. didnt do my job really well.. i mean.. it was really embarassing to talk about.. i admit.. i totally got lost during the 1st deployment.. TOTALLY LOST.. i feel so dumb thinking about it now.. doh! My boss is really a nice guy.. didnt scold me or anything.. just encouraged me on and stuff.. feel so bad and lousy about it.. haha gotta perform better nxt time.. - Haha on friday during my last deployment.. i was in my vehicle 1/2 body out the top hatch.. and guess what! it started raining =.= i mean, REALLY HEAVILY. haha imagine *pelted in the rain, drenched, can't see a thing, late for a deployment, 2 superiors just behind you in your vehicle staring at you* hahahahhaa!!! its almost like time froze for a while there. and i tot to myself "what the hell am i doing here?" hahaha really funny stuff. - So i guess thats all for this week.. haha spent a typical saturday weekend out with good company.. Although during the earlier part of the week i was hoping that things would have been kinda different today.. thought that things could have been special today.. but~ ohh well.. its been a good weekend day though no matter how typical it was.. - llew.. esaelp t'nod leef dab ro ytliug, i saw eht eno ohw saw gniyrt ot drah ni eht tsrif ecalp.. soc i tlef.. sgniht dluow evah neeb taerg rehtegot.. dna nemog.. fi uoy thguoht taht sgniht dluow tsuj dne ekil taht.. er'uoy gnorw i ekil uoy oot hcum ot tsuj evig pu ekil taht.. nemog iasan.. fi ll'ti ekat shtnom ro sraey.. llew.. *stiaw* :] Sunday, September 17, 2006, 9:20:00 PM
17th of september 2006, bernice is theoretically my girlfriend..
Well.. i never thought today would come.. but i guess fate has always been good to me.. (: - Rainy weathers coming up.. haha the weather has also started changing cold.. hmmm not good i suppose! haha judging that i have to go outfield almost every week for the next 2 months lol.! - erm. don't really know what to say.. haha kinda lost for words today.. bleah.. - going outfield this wednesday.. heard from wenhan its gonna be very stressful.. haha i hope that i can pull through.. well at least i hope that by tmr my flu and sore throats ok already.. hehehehmpf.. ohh well no more weekday offs.. - Looking forward to next weekend.. (: Wednesday, September 13, 2006, 11:57:00 PM
Weeks been good
Well.. this week has been pretty good (: sorted out alot of stuffs since last week.. and yeap i'm glad it was kinda sorted out.. guess we'll just have to wait and see for things to happen! hahaa but i'll admit. i'm not the kind to wait for things to happen.. hahaha blame it on OCS training.. "we make things happen." - And yeap last week had a really good talk with kailing.. haha we cleared up alot of stuffs! i mean, its great that now we still can be friends haha after not talking for so long.. haha well she did help me point out what i didn't do so well in a relationship and stuff. specifically sending her home. hahaha fine! i admit i really sucked at that. But ohh well things are different now! and yeah i'm trying to do things right this time.. i mean.. i really want things to work out this time. (: - Well nxt week going for "Forbidden city" the musical.. well.. i'm really looking forward to that day. hahah yankai's stick figure drawing with the quote "have you seen the empress?" was hilarious. - Ohh yar i never really mentioned this to anyone b4, but haha since secondary school, i have this somewhat affinity to the no. 9:13. well its always like when i see the clock, i see this time, be it in the morning or night. hahahah. and yeap todays the 13th of sept, so i thought something special might happen. hahah well turned out its any other day though hahaha bleah. - Question of the day! When you part with someone, do you always look behind, hoping the other will do the same?haha so.. everytime you leave.. always take a 2nd glance! you might never if he/she is doing the same.. - Dang tmr starting normal working schedule again.. that means no more weekday offs.. dang.. no time no time..! Wednesday, September 06, 2006, 9:43:00 PM
Sorry if i offend anyone who read this. this is my blog and i just feel like letting off some steam now.. gomen. - But fuck everything. fuck you. fuck the way i am. fuck they way that i am bothered easily by things. Anything that i have ever cared about to put effort into it just turns around and fuck me. yes so i am easily affected by emotions. well too bad. fuck off. so yes i think too much. too bad. - I hate the way i behave. i hate being so helpless. i hate how what others think of me affect me so much. i smile to hide what i feel. what do i feel. i feel depression. melancholy. i don't want to yearn for anything anymore. i hate. i dont want to smile anymore. i don't want to act crazy anymore. i just want to for a fucking moment know why am i doing what i am doing. who the hell am i doing things for. cause for a long time. i havn't been doing anything for myself. - I'm a selfish fucker. i think all about myself only. i think only about my own benefit. i insult people unknowingly. i get jealous easily. i try to hide from any problems that surface. I throw my weight around. - But i care for those around me, i sincerely do. if anyone was in a rough patch.. i'd call them up now and then every few days just to chat.. just to know how they are doing. just to let them know that i am concerned about how they are. - Has anyone.. any single fucking person in the world that has done that to me. just any single one.. just one.. who will ocassionally msg me "hey hows day..?" "hey free for lunch..?" instead of it being me.. always msging people that i care "hey.. hows day..?" and here i am.. almost begging for attention.. begging for someone that'll actually think about me just for a split second in the day.. wanting to share their daily experience with me. i beg.. almost groovling.. begging for attention.. - Begging.. how have i come to that.. this whole blog itself.. its almost like im crying out for attention.. I DON'T WANT FUCKING PITY JUST BECAUSE I WROTE ALL THIS SHIT ABOUT MYSELF. i wanted people who really cares to care for me.. not fucking pity. not fucking lip service. not fucking cause of fomality. not because of all the shit that makes no sense that i just typed here. - I apologize for offending anyone. its not like anybody actually reads my blog. my life has been a fucking circus. i'm just an entertainer in it. perfoming to an empty tent. - Hope for the best, expect the worst, life is a play, we're all unrehearsed. thats what i've been telling myself all the time. i have hoped. always hoped. expected nothing but the worst to happen to me. if my life was a play. macbeth would have paled in comparison to me. - i'll be fine after awhile.. all these has been couped up for quite some time le so yup.. im ok.. good night.. sweet dreams.. (: nyeah dont be stupid i wont kill myself over this kinda of shit. Monday, September 04, 2006, 11:23:00 PM
Wake me up.. when september ends..
Wake me up.. When september ends.. Well so starts september again.. things aplenty have been happening around haha.. well.. i guess the most happening that happened was my birthday chalet last weekend. - I admit! haha i wasnt in the best of moods during the past few days.. well kinda alot has been happening (or actually not happening like i wanted to).. and yeah it kinda got to me.. and made me feel kinda low cause of it.. Haha spent the friday night talking to yazid about it in my semi sober state (HAHAHAHA yaz you had a tough time hurh keeping me out of trouble) And it made me feel that.. well i'm not as pathetic as i thought i was, at least..? hahaha... - Hahah the birthday chalet for me and yang went pretty well i suppose, yangs mom made really good food, haha tea eggs for that matter! (i didnt get to eat 1, only heard that its good) lol. But yeap haha chatted with alot of old friends from archery and yangs class.. brings backs memories.. thanks guys for turning up.. haha. - Erm.. i wasn't drunk btw! haha was.. just a little not sober? HAHAHAHA. ok fine i was drunk on friday. started shouting around and stuff after most of the people left.. well.. maybe cos i was feeling abit dejected.. was busy helping eeyang preparing food and stuff and no 1 came up to me to chat or help and stuff.. just me.. alone... in front of the bbq pit.. LOL i even started talking to the chicken wings. *sic* lolol~ - Erm.. lol ok fine i confess! i was even more drunk on saturday itself! hahaha noticed how i was quite high during the party.. was just running around hahaha. when most the people i invited left drank another cup of red wine.. LOL think i freaked out the ppl there.. :P - erh.. kinda made a phone call when i was drunk.. said alot of stuffs.. hope i wasn't an embarrassment.. said alot of stuff that i wanted to say earlier but yar never got the chance to say it directly.. haha bleah! i'm not asking for an answer though.. but u can give me one anytime~ heh.. bleah.. :P - OK THIS IS WHERE MY 2ND PART OF THE POST GOT WIPED OUT. YET AGAIN. ZZZ. i'll just try to recall what i typed.. forgive me if i sound irritated.. but well its not the first time this happened.. here goes... - well THANX EVERYONE WHO CAME TO MY PARTY ON SAT. made me feel really special, haha especially yang collin sze weiyi nigel and ant, you all helped me out alot. really gratefulz. and ya thanx guys for all the presents.. although some of them.. .hahahah erhs.. i got 3 perfumes and 3 wallets o.o but i love all of them! hahaha... ohh yar thanx 21 sa guys for the "PSP".. lol still like it alot hahahaha. - Well tmr its back to work.. haha really needa get back the working mindet.. this month has been something like a vacation month for me, so many day offs and leaves.. but everything is going to be very hectic once ops b ends next week.. which means.. no more chance to ask '' out.. haiz.. last chance on monday...? (: once sept comes it'll be 2 months of pure outfield. ohh joy. the 'excitement' lol.! - Alot of minor things happened this week too.. kinda too tired to ink everything down.. But ohh! watched the devil wears prada today, quite a inspirational show! haha watched it at the grand cathay screen too! it would have been great..... IF the ticket attendant DIDNT give me a seat that was SMACK IN BETWEEN 2 PAIRS OF COUPLES. really uncomfortable feeling you know. ('Â') haha.. - nice song i heard over the radio hey jude, dont let me down.. you have found her.. now go and get her remember to let her into you heart then you can start to make it better haha trying to msg everyone who came to my chalet to say thanx and stuff.. cos you'll never noe, even the smallest gestures makes a person's day. (: and you'll never know.. on the other side.. someone looks forward to recieving your msg.. |
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Vanity isn't a sin, a little narcissm wouldn't hurt.![]() Woei Perng Age:24+ D.O.B:03/09/1985 Horoscope:Virgo School:NUS Chemistry Email:wongwp21@hotmail.com What is my proof of existence? When i'm 50 i hope that my daily revelations written in this place will help me in summarising what kind of life i have lead. I've done things i wasn't proud of, Things that i may never be able to forgive myself, but in doing so i've learnt lessons of patience and emotional control, discovering what i had become and how far i have deviated. Change is never too late. |
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