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And so it is, Just like you said it would be
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Saturday, April 28, 2007, 11:26:00 PM
April's Fool.. Aprils fool...
Aprils Fool.. April's Fools.. - So it seems with the blink of an eye april draws to an end.. eventful as it was.. most of the time i was too tired or not in the mood to write the blog.. haha.. well here it is.. - To summarize? april.. was a long month.. work.. social activities.. etc etc.. it was more or less like a continuous cycle without much stop haha.. I suppose the most eventful week was when my parents were away in china.. haha.. - Firstly.. Having 7 guys squeezing in your room with their laptops and computers playing lan together is quite a interesting experience.. haha.. next morning i woke up finding people sleeping all over the place.. funniest was wenhans description of his cold night under my rooms airconditioning system.. haha.. - And so the ORD date draws closer and closer.. and the frequencies in camp reduces slowly and surely.. - To think about it.. haha i started blogging around this time 2 years ago before i entered the army.. haha reading it up now i could almost feel the fear and apprehension that plagued me for weeks before i went into NS.. haha.. how far have i gone from where i started.. - Relinquishing my duties slowly in camp.. haha alot to pass down though.. - Recently i kept feeling that theres alot of things to do yet somehow or rather i just have not the heart or time to complete it.. many things to do before ORD and after ORD.. hmm.. linking up with old friends from all places.. getting of contacts from people in the unit.. handing down of battery affairs.. packing of my bunk.. clearance form.. getting of uni lecture notes.. doing project 692^2.. clearing up the mess of my room (forever clearing..) haha etc etc.. - And so many things to buy yet so little money.. haha was thinking of getting a ps3 or wii.. and now my dads interested in the SLR camera which i intend to chip it.. ohh well.. haha.. choices in life.. - Somehow or rather.. i noticed i've kinda changed.. - I'm not really fascinated by romantic stuff/movies/comics these days.. getting more and more non-chalant.. and my thoughts seldom deep.. not really thinking about the big picture but small snippets at times.. or somewhat haha i'm always too tired to think of anything else other than on a daily basis of things to do.. i suppose thats why i havn't blogged in a while too.. - Well i won't say if its a good or bad change.. just feels different from who i was.. i use to enjoy having deep thoughts no matter how nonsensical or meaningless they would seem.. its my way of looking at life's occurences slowly.. and i havn't had the heart to write down things i wanna remember or want to do, much lesser putting into actions my thoughts these days.. haha guess i'm just lazy am i? well that i must change though.. - One thing that hasn't changed is my adoration of piano music and orchestra.. fell in love with rachminoff 's (i think thats how its spelled) concerto no. 2 ever since i watched nodame the anime.. haha nice emotions it conveys.. strong.. unwavering kind of feeling. haha.. - I wonder who really reads my blog these days. besides my girl that is.. haha.. - Till i get my ability for deep thoughts again.. ending here.. Friday, April 06, 2007, 9:20:00 PM
My flaws.
..A Flawed Person.. Another Point In Life i want to Mark.. ..The Quieting of Nights.. - Been long since i've blogged hurh, well.. been doing some thinking for the week after things happened.. - I'm not perfect, i never said i was, although it was my character to try to achieve it, and my ignorance to distort my views, to facilitate percieving life in a way that i'm always right. - I was wrong. Truth is, I'm self centered, no matter what i did.. i can't remember the last time i did something really selfless to the ones i love and care for. - Nah this isn't just another one of those blogs where i'm in a really low mood and just berating myself for things i've done, haha as my girl would say.. "rolling in the mud." I'm trashing out all of my flaws, and i'm coming to terms with them today.. - Recent happenings make me think through about my behaviour and attitude.. firstly.. the quarrel i had with sze.. - Don't think its really necessary to put the whole issue into detail bah.. bottom line is.. baby.. i took you for granted, no excuses, no argument about it, i admit it.. things happened too easily for me to know how much i should cherish you.. you've tried to tell me a couple of times about how you felt but i brushed it aside cos i was self-centred.. like i was saying.. i'll change. i really appreciate the effort that you took to try to talk things out between the both of us and how much faith you put in me. - I take us seriously, so don't ya worry. =] - Secondly.. a conversation with jinsen about how i am at work.. - It was somewhat uncomfortable during the conversation.. reason being.. what he says about me made sense totally, that my attitude towards my peers is sucky. - I had this sense of self glorified feeling of righteousness about my ideals regarding work, or be it interpersonal relationships towards my colleagues or men.. - Towards my colleagues, i was always critical of them, of their work ethics or their perceptions or attitude whenever it differed from mine. - Towards my guys, i unknowingly distant myself from them.. i guess the pride of an officer got to me.. - Towards my friends.. my attitude sucked guys.. i flared up at you all damn easily, which was really uncalled for, haha and yankai i always mess up our corner and drool on your bed, HAHAHAHA my bad :P. - No matter what was right or wrong, i could have approached things in a better way i guess.. - Well with my love life and work relationships talked about.. i guess this other thing i really wanna talk about is about what i did last year, haha never really talked about it openly.. but thought i might as well say out how i feel now.. - As a guy, i was overbearing and definitely out of line to an extent that made you totally frustrated, haha that i guess we all know that hurh. i cared so much for my own feelings that i became lost and deillusioned.. haha now i really kinda felt guilty that i was actually jealous of sam and ant at points of time somewhat gave them a lousy attitude last time haha, i apologize for that guys, and that drunk incident wasn't very nice too, just wanted to apologize again for it.. haha cause i never failed to keep feeling bad about it. - That felt weird. somehow. =.= i'm weird. =.- - Anyways.. recent changes.. the the quieting of the bunks.. haha for most parts of the week there was only me and harrison in the bunk, besides rayner. a bunk of initially 10 slowly softens and becomes somewhat devoid of the laughters used to be heard at night.. - Everybody's looking forward to ORD, but i wonder sometimes if they've really thought about what waits for them after ORD, somewhat in army things have been planned out for you, theres always a certain sequence or order of things to be completed and done, but when we leave NS, we're young adult's and its about time that we make the decision's of what we want to do with the rest of our lives.. - Furthermore.. the companionship we've been so used to at night.. sleeping together with a group of guys which have been through alot with you, just chatting on recent happenings and views of things.. I'm already starting to miss that.. - Haha pretty long blog hurh..? But just to end.. Recently im starting to think more about what i really want out of my life.. and mainly the reason was because of sze.. just wanted to say how much she means to me and for making me realise my flaws.. thanks baby.. - Hope for the best, Expect the Worst, Life is a Play, We're Unrehearsed.. |
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