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You Don't Know me, You Don't Even Care望著你 突然一阵心痛 一次又一次任那感情放纵 你的脆弱 让我走不开 你的依赖 所以我存在 | ||||||||
And so it is, Just like you said it would be
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006, 9:43:00 PM
Sorry if i offend anyone who read this. this is my blog and i just feel like letting off some steam now.. gomen. - But fuck everything. fuck you. fuck the way i am. fuck they way that i am bothered easily by things. Anything that i have ever cared about to put effort into it just turns around and fuck me. yes so i am easily affected by emotions. well too bad. fuck off. so yes i think too much. too bad. - I hate the way i behave. i hate being so helpless. i hate how what others think of me affect me so much. i smile to hide what i feel. what do i feel. i feel depression. melancholy. i don't want to yearn for anything anymore. i hate. i dont want to smile anymore. i don't want to act crazy anymore. i just want to for a fucking moment know why am i doing what i am doing. who the hell am i doing things for. cause for a long time. i havn't been doing anything for myself. - I'm a selfish fucker. i think all about myself only. i think only about my own benefit. i insult people unknowingly. i get jealous easily. i try to hide from any problems that surface. I throw my weight around. - But i care for those around me, i sincerely do. if anyone was in a rough patch.. i'd call them up now and then every few days just to chat.. just to know how they are doing. just to let them know that i am concerned about how they are. - Has anyone.. any single fucking person in the world that has done that to me. just any single one.. just one.. who will ocassionally msg me "hey hows day..?" "hey free for lunch..?" instead of it being me.. always msging people that i care "hey.. hows day..?" and here i am.. almost begging for attention.. begging for someone that'll actually think about me just for a split second in the day.. wanting to share their daily experience with me. i beg.. almost groovling.. begging for attention.. - Begging.. how have i come to that.. this whole blog itself.. its almost like im crying out for attention.. I DON'T WANT FUCKING PITY JUST BECAUSE I WROTE ALL THIS SHIT ABOUT MYSELF. i wanted people who really cares to care for me.. not fucking pity. not fucking lip service. not fucking cause of fomality. not because of all the shit that makes no sense that i just typed here. - I apologize for offending anyone. its not like anybody actually reads my blog. my life has been a fucking circus. i'm just an entertainer in it. perfoming to an empty tent. - Hope for the best, expect the worst, life is a play, we're all unrehearsed. thats what i've been telling myself all the time. i have hoped. always hoped. expected nothing but the worst to happen to me. if my life was a play. macbeth would have paled in comparison to me. - i'll be fine after awhile.. all these has been couped up for quite some time le so yup.. im ok.. good night.. sweet dreams.. (: nyeah dont be stupid i wont kill myself over this kinda of shit. |
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Vanity isn't a sin, a little narcissm wouldn't hurt.![]() Woei Perng Age:24+ D.O.B:03/09/1985 Horoscope:Virgo School:NUS Chemistry Email:wongwp21@hotmail.com What is my proof of existence? When i'm 50 i hope that my daily revelations written in this place will help me in summarising what kind of life i have lead. I've done things i wasn't proud of, Things that i may never be able to forgive myself, but in doing so i've learnt lessons of patience and emotional control, discovering what i had become and how far i have deviated. Change is never too late. |
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